journ 10/7

& compositions in vulnerability

To the one yelling at me desperately “REPENT” — Give me the space to be wrong.

To the one defanging me — Show me mine, I’ll show you yours.

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jesus, would it bother you if you were just as much a figment to me as a teddy bear tea party?

“who else is at the tea party?”

buddha, do you feel used when i put you next to jesus in order to square up with myself?

“*sip* good tea.”

hey dad, why was jesus darth vader again?

“ha! just the catholic guilt speaking — luke, i am your father!”

poppop, how can there be love under threat of wrath?

“young people are impatient.”

mommom…

“please be patient with my grief.”

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on seeing yourself out of context

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The measurement problem: “All that you touch, you change. All that you change, changes you.”

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With mirrors you produce reflection. With reflections you produce rotation. With rotation you produce movement. With movement, stillness.

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i had a dream about a sexy beast

who felt like something of a thief

we made out and she was pleased

i liked the feeling of putting her at ease

she did not have a mind for boundaries

she took my money and my keys

broke the lock and flooded me

with images of her crossing lines

so don’t forget to dot your t’s

koans of her violets shrined

oh beautiful catastrophe

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the name comes at the end of a letter