liquid death

denial by confusion, faith by ignorance

is it mine or yours
i chose to be confused
to preserve an image
just not sure of whose

i know what i’ve got
bottled up
to suppress
or to let loose

better to mix up
i thought
than to believe
an impossible thought

or maybe it’s just safest to project
onto a one whom i can trust

or maybe it’s as simple as:
your words broke me, friend.
that threw me to clay-shattered
pieces

or maybe, am i selling myself
short?: lines were
crossed!

mind bending
like aang or is it beckham
dancing around my shadow
toothless, til it’s time to monch

i knew this:
is love, is love, is love
bet my life on the rocks

“was i wrong?”

all stayed the same
i just pointed a word
at it honestly.

GOD

blunder or burial
bumbling & blaming like
flaming hot cheetos queezing
oh god who put those words
next to each other

jesus,
that baggage, that
was never mine

tug on a fish
pull on the sea

return to the checkpoint
where what i know to be true
the lengths i go to minimize
the splashing of this toxic stew
even then, is it for me or is it for you

at least there’s that much
but it’s not much room
don’t have it to give right now
i love me, i love me not
when i’m harboring
more than two

let me put it this way.

i am your
your friedberry muzzle
mystery juice
drowning like in hot sauce
tonguing truth on a back me up hard drive
but we all know that’s not truth

there, i’ve said it.
now you knew.